Today’s run, and to be perfectly honest, the last few runs, have been difficult. Challenging in a very deep and personal way
– “If this keeps up, I’m never going to qualify for Boston”!
– “This is hard and it’s not even half of the distance I need to run – it’s not even close the pace I need to run either”
– “I’m too old for this”
– “I’m too fat”
The negativity is hard to deal with.
I still haven’t failed though – which is good. Not to say that I’m hitting all of my paces and reaching all of my goals. I’m not nailing my workouts like I would prefer to and sometimes the wheels come off completely. BUT.. I’m still out there doing it. I can honestly say I’m doing my best. I’m no slouch. So, I haven’t failed at all – I’m learning and I’m pushing back against the mental boundaries that keep trying to hem me in. Someday, those boundaries will be old nostalgic markers that I will look back on with a fond sigh.
Today was not that day. Today, I’m in the trenches and it hurts and I don’t like it much – but I haven’t failed if, as my friend Brian recently said – “You haven’t failed if you don’t give up forever!”.
Let’s not give up, together.
Let’s not give up, forever.
Let’s not give up.
Don’t ever give up